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Chapter 3 & 4

Chapter 3

Under the beautiful night sky, jongwoon and a sujin sit close to each other and looking up to the sky. That night jongwoon makes a promise that he will protect and love sujin forever. At the same time, sujin promise to be at his side and always love him. It was their promise to each other.

“Oppa, I always had a bad dream that one day you will leave me alone like my parents. Don’t leave me oppa. You’re the only person that I love and I can’t imagine my life without you.” Sujin can’t stop herself from crying.

“Sujin, oppa will never leave you. You’re the only person that cares about me. Oppa will always protect you and love you. Believe me.”

“Are you sure oppa?” Sujin stops crying and look straight to jongwoon eyes. She can feel the sincerity in his voice.

“That’s my promised. Oppa will never break this promise.” Jongwoon smile looking at sujin. “Tomorrow is your birthday. Oppa will make sure that it will be the best birthday in your life.”

“Tomorrow I will be 14 years old. I can’t believe that we have known each other for 6 years. I wish I will always be by your side. ”

Sujin never expect that her 14th birthday will become the worse birthday for her. Jongwoon oppa break his promised and didn’t come to celebrate her birthday. Jongwoon oppa leave the orphanage without tell other people. The principle also doesn’t have idea where he is and what happen to him. He breaks the promise they make to each other.

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“I must forget about him and be professional. He’s my boss and I’m just a worker.” Sujin kept remind herself about that fact. There is no reason for her to remember the past when he doesn’t remember anything about her.

She feels so nervous to meet him. Is fate play with her? She never thinks that they will meet again under this situation.
She knocks the door and enters the recording room. The first thing she hear when she enter the room is his voice. She never knows that he has such a wonderful voice. She tried to stop her tears when she hears the lyrics of the song that he sings. The lyrics were suitable to describe her feeling right now.


Love is really hurts
I can’t breath
I’ve lost y direction
My memory breaking into pieces
But you’re so calm because it has nothing to do with you
Do you even want to take the last bit?
Sorry, really sorry
Even when I say this, I feel apologetic
In a short while, we might lose everything
Love is really hurts, it hurts too much
I keep smiling yet crying endlessly
Love is really funny, really frightening
Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream
Don’t forget, please don’t forget
Even if it’s all lies, it’s okay
In a short while, we might lose everything
Love is really hurts, it hurts too much
I keep smiling yet crying endlessly
Love is really funny, really frightening
Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream
When I’m longing for and calling out your name
Once anxiously and timidly loving you
Want to believe
Stop breathing
Resist the tears
I keep smiling yet crying endlessly
Love is really funny, really frightening
Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up.... from my dream


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Today is the last day for the recording. I feel relief since there’s no problem with my recording. I don’t know why I feel so sad when singing the last single in my album. The song was a sad song and it has something that makes me want to cry when singing that song like there is some connection between the song and me.

“Thanks for the hard work.” I greet everyone in the studio when suddenly I saw her. What she’s doing in the recording room?

“Anyeonghaseo, My name is Choi Sujin. I’m your new personal assistant.”

I can’t believe what I hear from her cute mouth. I will take back what I say before about the personal assistant.

“Nice to meet you.” I said it with a smile in my face.
It seems like luck is in my side.

Choi Sujin, I will try my best to won your heart....


Chapter 4

The day seems too long for me. Looking at his face make me remember our memories and I can’t describe my emotions at that time. Sometimes I feel that I really hate him but at the same time I can’t control myself from looking at him. He’s so nice and friendly to me. It make my heart hurts so much.

“Sujin, what are you doing here? Yesung need something from you.”

“Junsu oppa. I just take a break for a while.” I smile looking at junsu oppa.
“Yesung ask me to find you because he needs something from you.”

“I will go now. I’m sorry because you waste your time because of me.” I feel bad since this is my first day and I’ve done something so irresponsible.

“It’s okay. I didn’t mind about it but I hope you can always be with him. He looks like other people but he’s not. He’s so weak and need people to take care of him.” I can see junsu oppa face change when he talks about that.

“I understand but can I ask you something? I really want to know what actually happen to yesung oppa. He doesn’t look like he’s sick.”

“Actually, six years ago, he faint during school and after the check up, he was diagnosed with end stage renal failure. Both his kidney can’t work properly. He may look happy but inside him, I know he felt sad and lonely. I hope you can be his friend.”

“I’ll try my best to take care of him. Don’t worry oppa.”

“Thank you. He’s my best friend and I always hope the best for him.”

“I really envy with him because he has such a good friend beside him. Can I be your friend oppa? I always want someone that I can call oppa since I don’t have one.”

“Of course you can. I also don’t have a sister and I’m happy to have one.”

“I’m so happy oppa. Thank you oppa because you’re so kind to me.”

“Stop say thank you. From now, you’re my sister and brother must protect his sister right? If you have any problem you can come to me.”

I smile at him and both of us walk together to the office. When I enter the office I see yesung oppa busy search for something.

“Oppa do you need anything from me?”

“Please help me search for my necklace. I still have it with me this morning but I didn’t realise when I lost it.” I look at his worried face and start searching around the office but I didn’t find it.

“I’m sorry but I didn’t find it. Jungsu oppa already ask other staff to find it at the place that you’ve perform today. Don’t worry.”

“Thanks sujin. That necklace is so important for me and I can’t lose it.”

“It’s ok. It’s my....” before I could finish my words, he suddenly collapses in front of me. I feel like my heart stop beating. I’m so shock of what happen and don’t know what I to do. I quickly call for someone to help me. In less than 15 minutes everyone knows about what happen. I pray that nothing bad would happen to him. Looking at his pale face make me want to cry. I can’t stand looking at his unconscious face.

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He dreamt he was seating under the tree with a girl. They were looking up to the sky and he was so happy at that time. He has feeling that she was someone that closed to him, someone that he really love but looking at the girl make his heart hurts so much. When he try to look closely at her face suddenly there is a bright light that make him closed his eyes. When he opens his eyes he’s in room in hospital and he can hear a very loud voice from outside the room. He tried to get up from the bad but he’s accidently bump into a glass and it falls to the floor breaking into pieces. At that time he can hear the door open and he can see his father worried face when he enters the room.

“Jongwoon, are okay now? Is there any place that you feel uncomfortable?”
“I’m okay now dad. Don’t worry.”

“I’ve already told you that this work is not suitable for you. You should hear to my advice.”

“You should try to understand my situation dad. I also want to be like anyone else. I have my own dream.”

“I understand but I can’t imagine what would happen to me if something bad happen to you. You’re my only son and my only family in this world.”

“I know dad. I really love you.”

“I’ve talk to the doctor and you need to stay at hospital for a few days.I already ask junsu to cancel all your performance”

“But dad I’m okay now. You don’t need to cancel all my performance.”

“Can you at least accept my advice right now? It’s for your own good.”

“Okay dad but after that you can’t stop me from continue with my schedule.”

“I’ll not stop you. Just rest for a few days than you can continue with your schedule. I need to go now but if you need for anything you can ask your personal assistant to do it for you. She’s outside.”

“I’m okay dad. Don’t worry about me. I know you’re so busy with your work.”
“I will go now. Take care of yourself.”

Sitting alone in his room make him feels so lonely and empty. Hospital always gives him this kind of feeling. He gets up and walks out the room. He opens the door and he sees sujin standing outside his room.

Looking at her he asks “What are you doing here?”

“Yesung oppa. Mr. Kim asks me to stay here and help you if you need anything?”

“You can stay in the room with me. You must be tired standing here by yourself.”

“It’s okay. I don’t want to bother you.”

“You’re not bothering me. Actually I feel so bored in there and want to take some fresh air outside.”

“You can’t go out right now. There are a lot of reporters outside.” His face changed by hearing to what she said.

“How they know about this?” he couldn’t hide his disappointment.

“I’m so sorry. That’s my entire fault. I’m so scared when you collapsed and I call someone to help me. I totally forget that nobody know about your sickness. The news about you spread so fast and the reporters start to gather outside the hospital.” She feels guilty towards him.

“I know that I can’t keep it as a secret forever but I hate when people look at me with sympathy.”

He walks towards the window to looks at the situation outside the hospital. He can see a lot of reporters outside. He feels so helpless and walking back to his room. Sujin follow him entered the room. Looking at his pale face makes her sad. She doesn’t know what make her so brave but she can’t stop herself from hugging him from the back. He stops walking and turn to face her. He looks confused by her actions.

“I’m sorry.” She can’t stop her tears. She knows that she should hate him but looking at his condition make her heart hurts so much. It’s like she can feel his feeling right now.

“It’s not your fault or others fault. Please stop crying. I’m not angry with you. You make me look like a bad guys.” He said with smile on his face. “I want to tell you something but promise me that you will not angry.”

She looks at his pale face and says “I promised. What is it?”

“You look funny when you cry.” She could not stop herself smiling.

“I hate when people around me sad. I hope you will always smile and be by my side. I don’t know why but I feel so calm when you’re with me.”

She feels happy because she knows that he never changes. He still jongwoon oppa to her. The only different is he doesn’t recognise her. She gives him a hug to support him.

“I will always be by your side and support you oppa, don’t worry.”

“Thanks sujin. I know you may think that I’m weird because we just know each other but I feel so comfortable around you. It feels like talking with someone that I’ve known for a long time.”

“You’re not weird oppa. I also feel the same. You can talk to me if you have any problem.” She realised that she start to open her hearts again to him. She hopes she will not regret it later on.

They didn’t realise that someone was looking at them and taking their pictures. Tomorrow everything will change for them. Nothing will remain the same.

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Chapter 2

“Can I ask you something? Have we met before?” I look at her confused faces. I can’t describe my feeling right now. Although this is the first time I see her, I feel comfortable to be near her. It’s like I have known her for a long time.
“I’m sorry but I think this is the first time we met. Maybe you have seen me in one of my performance.” I said with smile in my face. She’s so beautiful and there’s something about her that make me want to know more about her. Is it love at the first sight??
“Oh, it’s ok. Your face looks like someone that I know. It has been a long time since the last time I meet him.” Her face looks so disappointed. I can’t take my eyes from her face because her face has something that makes me feel so calm. After pay for my things, I leave the shop to go to my schedule today. Along the way I kept thinking about that girl. I don’t know what was so special about her.
“Yesung stop dreaming. You must get ready to perform now.” I quickly go out from the car to start the rehearsal. Inside me I hope it’s not our last meeting.

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I will start my new work today and I feel so nervous. After I resign from my previous work, my friend introduced me to work as personal assistant in one of the biggest company in the entertainment world. Although I’m not so interested in entertainment but I really need this work. Now I’m big enough to live by my own and I don’t need my adopt parents sympathy anymore. This is my chance to be independent.
“Attention everyone, I want to introduce you all with our new personal assistant that will replace Miss Kim.” I smile when my manager introduce me to other staff. I tried to hide my worried since this is the first time I work in a big company. “Anyeonghaseo, my name is Choi Sujin. Nice to meet you. ”
After finished introducing myself to all the staff in my department I entered my manager room to receive the information about my new boss.
“Miss Choi, first of all I want you to understand more about your work scope. You should know that it is important for you to pay attention on every detail and avoid from doing any mistakes. You must ready to work under a lot of pressure. Do you understand?”
“I understand Mr Park.” I look at his serious face. “Can you tell me more about my boss?”
“He is a famous singer and our CEO son. I hope you can help him because he is sick and can’t be too tired. You must pay attention on every detail about him and keep this as a secret. Understand?”
“Yes, Mr Park. Is there anything that I need to know?”
“I already put all the details about him on your desk and you can study about it by yourself. You can go now and I will introduce you to him tomorrow.”
“Thank you. I will go now.” I’m going out from the room with a lot of thinking. I must be in trouble. Why he need to be a CEO son and why life is so hard.
When I reach my table, I can see one envelope on my table. It must be the personal information of my new boss. I’ m so excited to open the envelope but everything change once I saw the picture inside the envelope. I can’t believe my eyes. I must be day dreaming. I pinched my hand to check whether it is a dream but inside me I know that it is true. Is fate play with me?
I feel like I stop breathing when I saw his name. “Kim jongwoon.” I said it loudly.
Jongwoon oppa, I know it is you but why don’t you recognise me? Is I’m not important to you. I feel betrayed by him. He leaves me in the orphanage because of wealth. Did he think that I’m a burden to him? I can feel the tears in my eyes. I can’t imagine that I need to see him every day, work for him and help him. Why all of this must happen to me...


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“Yesung , tomorrow I will introduce you to your new personal assistant. She will replace Miss Kim and helps you in all your work.”
“Hyung, I can do all that by myself. I don’t need personal assistant to do it for me. I thought that you know me well.”
“I know how you feel but this is an order from your dad. You should know that he love you and doesn’t want anything bad happen.” Junsu hyung give me a sympathy look. I know that it’s not his fault but I can’t stand it anymore. I also want to live like other people
“Hyung, sometimes I feel like I have no freedom in my own life. It’s seemed like I live in prison.”
“I don’t know what to do since I’m not in your place but you must be positive and stop thinking about it. Just accept her as one of the worker.”
“I will try my best but I hope she’s not like Miss Kim. I can’t stand it if she’s like her.” Maybe junsu hyung was right. There’s no need to think about it.
“Don’t worry. I already ask people at the office, they say that she’s ok and she’s still young.”
“I hope that’s true hyung.” I looked away from junsu hyung. I’m tired of people that try to take care of me.
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Yesung POV
I live in the shadow for ten years and nobody can understand my feeling. I woke up ten years ago in hospital without anything in my memories. I feel empty and lost. I know my name from the beautiful necklace with my name on it. Kim jongwoon, that’s my name. Then someone come in my room and introduces himself as my dad. There’s nothing can I do, I know nothing and anyone. My dad, Kim Jaesung is the only person I know at that moment. He really loves me and takes a good care of me but he is too protective.
Everything become worse when 6 years ago I faint at school and was diagnose with end stage renal failure. Both my kidney can’t work properly. Since then I need to do dialysis once a week. After that everything changes. My dad never allowed me to go anywhere by myself. I still can’t undergo a surgery because I can’t find a suitable kidney for me.
Like everyone else, I also have dream and my dream is to become a singer. I feel relief when my dad agrees to allow me to become a singer but I must be singer for his recording company. I agree and here I am now. I have become a famous singer but I prefer not to use my real name but use yesung as my stage name. Nobody knows that I was the son of Kim jaesung and I was sick. I really happy because other people treat me like a normal people and I have fan that always support me.
Is this life that I want??? I still don’t know the answer for that question. Sometimes I have a feeling that my dad try to hide something from me. Is there something that I shouldn’t know???
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Chapter 3

Under the beautiful night sky, jongwoon and a sujin sit close to each other and looking up to the sky. That night jongwoon makes a promise that he will protect and love sujin forever. At the same time, sujin promise to be at his side and always love him. It was their promise to each other.
“Oppa, I always had a bad dream that one day you will leave me alone like my parents. Don’t leave me oppa. You’re the only person that I love and I can’t imagine my life without you.” Sujin can’t stop herself from crying.
“Sujin, oppa will never leave you. You’re the only person that cares about me. Oppa will always protect you and love you. Believe me.”
“Are you sure oppa?” Sujin stops crying and look straight to jongwoon eyes. She can feel the sincerity in his voice.
“That’s my promised. Oppa will never break this promise.” Jongwoon smile looking at sujin. “Tomorrow is your birthday. Oppa will make sure that it will be the best birthday in your life.”
“Tomorrow I will be 14 years old. I can’t believe that we have known each other for 6 years. I wish I will always be by your side. ”
Sujin never expect that her 14th birthday will become the worse birthday for her. Jongwoon oppa break his promised and didn’t come to celebrate her birthday. Jongwoon oppa leave the orphanage without tell other people. The principle also doesn’t have idea where he is and what happen to him. He breaks the promise they make to each other.

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“I must forget about him and be professional. He’s my boss and I’m just a worker.” Sujin kept remind herself about that fact. There is no reason for her to remember the past when he doesn’t remember anything about her.
She feels so nervous to meet him. Is fate play with her? She never thinks that they will meet again under this situation.
She knocks the door and enters the recording room. The first thing she hear when she enter the room is his voice. She never knows that he has such a wonderful voice. She tried to stop her tears when she hears the lyrics of the song that he sings. The lyrics were suitable to describe her feeling right now.


Love is really hurts
I can’t breath
I’ve lost y direction
My memory breaking into pieces
But you’re so calm because it has nothing to do with you
Do you even want to take the last bit?
Sorry, really sorry
Even when I say this, I feel apologetic
In a short while, we might lose everything
Love is really hurts, it hurts too much
I keep smiling yet crying endlessly
Love is really funny, really frightening
Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream
Don’t forget, please don’t forget
Even if it’s all lies, it’s okay
In a short while, we might lose everything
Love is really hurts, it hurts too much
I keep smiling yet crying endlessly
Love is really funny, really frightening
Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up from my dream
When I’m longing for and calling out your name
Once anxiously and timidly loving you
Want to believe
Stop breathing
Resist the tears
I keep smiling yet crying endlessly
Love is really funny, really frightening
Please, stop it now, if only I was able to wake up.... from my dream


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Today is the last day for the recording. I feel relief since there’s no problem with my recording. I don’t know why I feel so sad when singing the last single in his album. The song was a sad song and it has something that makes him want to cry when singing that song like there is some connection between the song and me.
“Thanks for the hard work.” I greet everyone in the studio when suddenly I saw her. What she’s doing in the recording room?
“Anyeonghaseo, My name is Choi Sujin. I’m your new personal assistant.”
I can’t believe what I hear from her cute mouth. I will take back what I say before about the personal assistant.
“Nice to meet you.” I said it with a smile in my face.
It seems like luck is in my side.
Choi Sujin, I will try my best to won your heart....